What will happen to my family, I am the big one. My father had high hopes on me, he wished me becoming the best son and everyone would make him so proud to have a son like me. I still remember his words when we first entered the college together I felt like i am bearing a 100 ton load of hopes and responsibilities.
On that day after I stepped in I finally realized in four years from now I am a factory made product because in India the amount of engineering students I almost equal to a factory production. You know what I later realized in these two years of engineering I got lots and loads of memories and my family has grew large larger and larger. By the way how will Soumya move on without me, how will she live. Shucks I really should not think about that because she will find one boy any time after this thing you know in India it is 988:1000 ratio girls to boys so it is more like an option to them. Do not get me wrong but you know... and ya I may be wrong with these statistics.
No one comes talking to themselves this way until they are risking their job or planning to commit a suicide or is in a great risk. Yes, I am about to die, may be many people will not be able to sit right in front of their death waiting to reach their “Final Destination”, how ironical, my last movie was the 5th part of it. I am not committing suicide but I am about to die not by a human but by an animal. I wish I could have a better death, I think no one in the world will wish a wish like this.
Let me talk to my dad before everything winds up ‘The number you are trying to reach is currently not reachable, you may leave a voice message after the beep’ An automated sweet lady voice spoke reminding me to talk to Soumya too
“Sou ... Dad! ... Dad!, Hi how are you I know this is unusual for you, me leaving a voice message and yeah I think I had to do this, you will understand this soon” I wish I could talk to him in virtual reality, but then you realise you are no Ambani to have 1 GB of 4g data to do skype call in the middle of a camp you fought a week with your dad to go there with your friends to enjoy where the all new Airtel is still trying to figure out a way to set up a tower. But we can still find 1 bar in signal indicator to reach our parents, the communication system have developed that much for sure, better than this , may be? I have no clue.
“Dad, I am so proud to be your son and I wish I made you proud too. You are the best dad, best leader, mentor and a guide to me. There are some things I want you to know, you know...” my voice broke, My eye gates flushed water out of the dam and I really could not hold myself any longer I let it out... I pulled my strength together and spoke “I got a part time job at Red Bull just let them know about this and Rajesh and Vamsi are my best friends please guide them through in life. I owe the street vendor at the end of the street in the colony 120 Rs for the Diary milk that I bought for your could be Daughter in law Soumya. Just take care of yourselves I know Sailesh will do good. Careful dad with stocks play wise. Love you.”
Ever since I was kid I admired my father and grew watching movies and you know mainly rivalry starts off with favourite hero’s and your life gets influenced by the hero, like wise mine too. I am huge fan of Ranbir and it is so obvious that you learn ‘gaaliyan’ after Rockstar and ‘Flirting’ after Yeh Jawaani Hey Deewani and yeah I learnt them all by no difficulty and you know, that time I realized my mother saying
“Sameer. What ever you want to do, you do but if you are assigned to do something love what you are doing and you will not hate it.” My mother’s gentle voice filled with love and affection reverberates in my ear.
Have you ever realized that there is a worst looser in the worst losers house, it is the alarm clock which fails to wake us up every day. It just gives us a message that no matter how many times you loose try and try and try until one day you succeed in doing what you were bound to do. Everything around us gives some message and we notice that we realise what happened but we never try to understand and replicate that in our life.
Have you ever realized that the amount of calories that you spend in your gym is much less than the calories that your mother burn’s everyday and then she waits for us to come and we come and things sometimes turn ugly, sometimes turn moody and sometimes turn really great. All these changes are not caused because of the love of our mother but because of us. Her love is eternal, unchanged un biased and you just have to realise it.
When the things come to an end and you realise it is coming to an end there are 2 types of reactions , Boredom when we are feeling this way we tend to skip few things like finishing up what we started or starting to get frustrated and second thing is Anxiety. Anxiety is good but the end result is still the same when you know what happened you will leave the space and leave it incomplete. I do not want to do that I will finish up everything I started ‘Hello!” a voice came
I was like out of the world for at least I could speak to the person I loved and I wanted to share it with her for the rest of my life. Like in the MTV Splitsvilla where they say “Where there is love in the air,...” I liked these lines so I just remember them , yeah like I was saying you may not be able to have ‘Love in the air’ everyday but every time you think you are missing love that is the time you are disturbed in your mind.
“Yeah! Soumya! Tha....” I was cut by a voice from the speaker from my phone and I was like ‘NOT AGAIN’
“this is Soumya Sharma please leave a voice message” this automated voice is turning out to be irritating and I have got no time to sit and think about that I have to move from the place but time isn’t right
“Soumya! Honey I love you, you made a real impact in my life and I really adore you a lot cannot just tell them in words. All these years we cuddled and spent real time sharing love sparing differences we had the most beautiful short term love story. I may not be able to do this but I planned to do this on your birthday... I will ask you so that I may not have the guilty of not asking you” I spoke with a husky erotic whisper and I stopped momentarily and I realise when you think things are to be rushed, then you should not be giving any pause.
But as you know its crucial and by these blooper videos that come up when a boy proposes and he gets whacked by any object that is closer to the girl and this struck my head suddenly but then I realized she would not be seeing me anymore so I can ask anything because nothing is gonna touch me. I am invisible, I am not gonna get hurt by anything. And a spoiler alert ‘Mr. Sameer you will be no more’, conscious will never let you have a little relaxation when things are given much thought about, it just has this weird nature of questioning and sometimes you tend to realize and sometime you leave the thought. But leaving it will never help you, give a thought about your conscious and answer and you will have a great idea or result
“Soumya! Will you marry me? Anyways love you. Bye” I hung up the phone sensing abnormal activity around me.
Thirty feet out I see something moving, slowly, through the dead leaves I see something coming towards me and I am concerned what it is.
Your brain never works and starts to simplify some simple doubts or guessing about the situation how it is and all kinds of things. How wonderful to realize it is beautiful creature for those who watch Discovery channel, yeah I think you might have guessed it by this time, it is the snake hissing with the split tongue with those curvy lined path that it impressed over the land and seriously these creatures are way more weird yet fascinating when we see them live. To sum it all, it ‘s a cobra, what a lucky fortune I made out of the forest.
My reflexes reacted but it is too late, the only thing I could plan to do right now is to run to save my life.
I was a football player never was even selected for a school team though, I incorporated it into my resume only to fill up the empty space in the ‘games you play’ column in my childhood and but yet I could run and that is what is most important.
To put me much nearer to my grave, I am dressed u with a jacket which added 500 gms to my total body weight. Trekking and camping in forest excited me to get a pair of woodland big sole heavy brown colour boots which almost looked like a camouflage to my legs and this shit is heavier than it is usually when you run with them. Surrounded with 10 times my actual aged trees around me, dense . It with held the cold breeze that could be below 4 degree Celsius it will kill you with cold. In this bloody kind of situation I have to run to save my life. Yes I ought to cause I cannot sit back in this forest get bit by the snake and die letting my saliva foam come out of my mouth being half dead and taking time watching myself get poisoned all the way and finally just wishing the poison to soon kill me neither can I move my hands nor legs to at least wipe that foam, I lie unconsciously in the forest and my body gets decomposed by all the bacteria rising above my body...
Shucks! I just cut of my imagination and it is just getting vulgar. Over the years I developed this way of thinking too deep into situations visualising and repenting why did I just visualise that sight.
Only option I got is to run, run for my life.
“When you are chased by a snake you should never run in a zig-zag order but to run straight as fast as possible coz it takes time for the snake because it has got curvy motion forward.” This is what I learnt from Discovery and now i feel it really valuable and real education.
I started running in the dense forest cruising through the little trees and bushes as fast as I can with heavy steps every time I move forward...
I could keep a little distance away from the snake not to away to miss its venom spill and I realized I have to hurry all my way and never stop, but my body started to give up and little less my instincts never encouraged...
“Ouch!... Holy Shit! F*** this forest”
These un plain land has disturbed the position of my ankle, I am stating to loose hope of me watching the next sunrise
I remember my father saying ”Nothing in the world is permanent, Neither life nor pain. If you are facing pain and you take it, then there is life for you ahead nor nothing but darkness.”
I understood these lines, sometimes a little conversation you might have not understood before had in depth meaning and you will realize it later and you have to learn...
I started running towards unknown destination like the current corporate scenario, no one know where they are going but they run... here both of us are running for life.
In the calm forest I could listen to my breathe at every step I make and a “hiss” that follows me behind
I ran like a dog not even giving an halt for catching my breathe and I realized I would not keep up my pace and neither my muscles could run anymore and that moment I could listen to something towards the far end of my right... It seemed like a river flow and I changed my direction towards it as not all snakes would get into water.
“God please be with me. Let not this snake swim and let me live...”I prayed to my lord ,so sincerely for the first time in my life.
I plunged into the water and swam fast and looked back and this snake did catch up with me, I wonder what I did to this snake...
“It stopped. It stopped! Yeah It stopped! Oh my god it is not coming.” I was shouting on top of my voice to let the world know that I will be breathing for few more years.
I was willing to go to the other shore and wait till the sun rises and find my way home but the story was different, The lake contained alligator’s and I have one close to me
It found it’s prey and this is coming with it’s mouth open and I realized and I said
“Thanks dad! Lo...”
“Aaa! No!..... ”
Hichcock hichcock the alarm broke out at 6’o’clock, time I set up for getting up.
“Oh! Crap! What happened? I am alive and all in one piece.” I spoke to myself I realized it was all a dream.
She looks so delicious in those shorts and the crop top, her milky white skin glistening in the moonlight like an angel. Every inch of her exposed skin is asking me to touch and play with her. One look at her clothes and anyone can tell that she is asking for it. The fact that she is walking in the streets alone after nine is a perfect proof. It is my duty to give her what she wants. After all, she is asking for it, isn’t she? I advance towards her slowly, moving stealthily in the shadows. I have to pounce on her and take her by surprise, just like they show in the movies.
But hey, this is not a movie! Even the most foolish person won’t come to her rescue. They all know that she wants it. She must have fantasised about this late at nights. After all, she is asking for it, isn’t she? She is screaming under my weight, struggling to push me off that amazing body of hers. She is pleading for my mercy, and at the same time trying to punch me in my gut. Alas, I am far too strong for her. Moreover, I know that these protests and struggles are nothing but pretence. Girls like her enjoy it as much as we do, perhaps more, I have been told. I love giving them what they want. I feel like it’s my duty. After all, she is asking for it, isn’t she?
I look down at her shivering body, and spit on her face. There are so many girls like her in the world, always asking for it. I have to satisfy all of them. My phone in my pocket rang. I took it out and had seen my mother’s face blinking on the screen. "Hello, mom, what is it?” I asked, slightly worried.
She never calls at this time.
"Rahul, some guys... some guys molested Jia at the nightclub...” I hear her sobbing on the other side.
I feel the Earth tremble beneath my feet. How? How could someone do this to Jia, my little sister?
I sat on the back row of the partially filled courtroom. The boy standing at the defendant’s stand is probably a rich spoiled brat in his late twenties.
“Mr. Udit Kapoor, what compelled you to molest Ms. Jia Makheeja?” The public prosecutor asked.
“I didn’t do anything against her will, believe me Your Honour,” he says, looking at the judge,
“Jia... Jia was asking for it!” He shouted.
I felt the world collapse around me as a loud scream made its way out of my throat.