Day-1: today I saw him for the first time. I don't know why I feel so connected. The moment I saw him; my heart, it felt like it's been filled with tons of air. Yeah! I know I'm exaggerating but I felt so. But he didn't see me. I wish I see him again.
After 2 days she will be coming down the stairs talking with her friend from her department and she'll see him coming from the entrance door towards the stairs and he'll glance at her for a second. She'll run to the place a bench under a tree where she writes her dairy every day. She opens her dairy with all her excitement and starts to write her dairy.
Day-4: I saw him again today, in my department. I think he's from the same department. But I never saw him. Gosh I'm so dumb. How can I not see him all these days? But today he saw me. Although it was just a glance, he saw me. Well that's enough. I wish he feel the same way as I do.
Next day she'll be walking with her friend outside her classroom corridor. And she'll see him standing outside a senior section. He'll wave at her and smile. But a girl comes from behind waving at him back. With an upset heart she'll go back to her place to write her daily dairy.
Day-5: I saw him again today. He was waving at me. Suddenly my heart it felt so excited. For that moment I really thought he was waving at me and I almost raised my hand. But Sushmitha came from behind. He was waving at her. Now a days I'm getting so greedy. Why would he wave and smile at me? But I'm happy. At least I got to know his name. When Sushmitha was waving she greeted him with his name. So it seems his name is YASH.
Wow I've started to like that name already. Anyways I've come to know one more thing he's my senior. So the good news is I get to see him almost every day.
She use to see him every day and use to write her dairy, Days passed by and her daily Dairy became her LOVE DAIRY. Because everything she wrote was just about him. One day she'll be sitting with her friends and chatting in lunch break.
Mounika: hey! Did you hear about Sushmitha and Yash?
She gets desperate and asks her,
Naina: Yash? What’s about them????
Harshitha: Don't you know they've been seeing each other. Everyone is talking about it.
Mounika: see Sushmi is coming let's just ask her.
Sushmitha: What were you guys thinking to ask me?
Naina: About you and Yash is that true? That you guys are in relation?
Sushmiha: yes everything you heard is true.
With a broken heart Naina walks out from her class holding her Dairy and tears rolling out she'll run to her place. Yash who was listening everything see her running with tears. And will go after her. She’ll sit on the bench and starts to write her Dairy.
Day-75: Today I didn't see him. I think there's no meaning in waiting for him. Why my heart is so aching so much. Why am I crying this hard for a stranger? Why did I bind an unknown relation with a stranger? Why? I....
Her tears drops fall on her dairy from her cheeks. And she breaks down and starts to cry. Meanwhile her friend calls her.
Mounika: hey Naina, it's time the buses are leaving hurry up I got your bag.
In that rush she won't see the dairy falling from her lap. Yash who's been watching everything takes the dairy with him.
Next day as soon as she comes to college she searches for her dairy.She'll return to her class after searching for it for an hour.and she'll hear her friends talking.
Harshitha: yes Yash was doing all the preparations he's gonna propose her now in the seminar hall.
Without thinking anything Naina runs to the seminar hall. She'll reach the hall and will try to push the door but she could clearly hear her heartbeat pounding so loud. Ignoring her heartbeat she'll push the door. As soon as she pushes him door dozens of balloons flew outside. The room was totally filled with balloons pushing away all the balloons from her way she goes in and she'll see Yash standing with red roses in his hands.
Yash: I saw you last year I felt the same way as you did for me, like the balloons filling my heart,
It was always you my heart searched for,
I made your friends as mine just to know about you...,
I can hear all day when people talk about you,
I never knew you felt the same,
I never knew the girl that I always loved cries for me so hard,
Now that I know I want to say what I feel for you...
He stands on his knees,
Whenever I see the moon your face strikes my mind...,
Whenever I walk lonely my heart longs your company....,
Whenever I touch the keypad my fingers feel like dialing your number....,
Whenever I experience something I get anxious till I share it with you....,
Whenever I sit alone my mind thinks about you...,
Whenever I'm ill my only reason to get well is you...,
Whenever I feel sad only thoughts that surround me are yours...,
Whenever I close my eyes I see your face and then I smile...
'Cause it's always been you in my ind and my heart,
I LOVE YOU NAINA.
On a sunny day, as soon as doctor Daniel opened his clinic, he had a patient waiting for him. Though it has been few weeks since he had patients waiting for him, pretending it was usual, he invited her to his cabin.
After both of them settled, the doctor could observe that the girl was quite tensed. Before he even asked for her problem, she mentioned, “Mr. Daniel, I didn’t know whom to consult. I’m in need of your help to find my friend.”
Asking her to take a deep breath, Daniel took two cups from the shelf beside him and served coffee from his flask. Passing one cup to girl, he mentioned, “I’ll certainly help you Arya. Could you just tell me everything in-detail and not rush?”
Looking into the doctor’s black eyes, Arya replied, “One of my friends is missing and I cannot help but feel that he is in danger.”
Daniel suspected Arya was lying as she never reached out to such great length to help someone before. So after tasting his sweet coffee served with milk, Daniel asked, “Can you tell me details about your friend?”
Arya took her first sip of coffee before stating, “He’s name is Anthony and we are colleagues. In fact, we share a cubical at work.”
As Daniel realized he isn’t a friend, Arya continued, “He is quite unique compared to most guys at work. He’s an introvert and seldom shares his views.”
Looking at her oval face and pony tail, Daniel suspected if he might be a gay. Meanwhile Arya continued, “Exactly four days back, he resigned from his job and when I asked for a reason, Anthony told me he was going in search of his Senorita.”
As his eyebrows raised, Daniel confirmed, “A title to address a young lady in Spanish?”
Arya nodded in agreement. Placing his cup of coffee on the table that seperated them, Daniel questioned, “So your friend left his job and is wandering in search of a Spanish girl?”
Arya nodded again. Feeling confused, Daniel questioned, “Is he traveling to Spain?”
Arya thought about it for a moment before saying, “I’m not sure. I have come to you suspecting he is lost in his loneliness and is destroying himself.”
Taking a deep breath, Daniel questioned, “And why do you think so?”
Looking at the doctor for a moment as he waited for her answer, Arya replied, “I have been to his home to talk to him. After entering using my spare, I witnessed his thoughts through his wall paintings and took time to read his diary too.”
Finishing her sentence, Arya passed a black diary to the doctor. Taking it, Daniel replied, “A few people’s diaries talk more than them. However, I’ll need time to comprehend his intentions.”
Arya impatiently pleaded, “Please get it done as soon as you can doctor.”
Arya tried tracking Anthony with the help of cyber police but since he wasn’t carrying his phone, they couldn’t help. Even tracking through money lending machines didn’t help because the last time he used them was when he was in city.
Meanwhile a few police officers checked the travel records to confirm that Anthony hasn’t left the country. Every contact Arya seeked told her they don’t know where he could go.
Two days passed by and even Daniel didn’t call back. Arya felt, she would lose Anthony and while eating lunch, she received a message from Daniel saying “Meet me as soon as you can.”
Arya immediately rushed to his place taking a leave that afternoon. Daniel could see her tensed and offered her a glass of water as soon as she settled down.
“I am excited about this case as it’s interesting. Your friend is quite unique and could be in grave danger if he is not helped.”
Arya curiously asked “Why? What did you find out? Can you help him?”
Daniel smirked. He knew how tough it is to find Anthony, as he is a fantasizer whose reality is his dreams.
However, he said “Your friend's personality is quite intriguing. I have never been more motivated to take up a case like this but I will need more evidence of the theory which I’m using as a reference before we start helping and to do so we must speak to father Joseph.”
Arya herself read from the diary that every Friday Anthony confessed his sins as he believed that God would forgive him and give him a lovable life if he did so. But never thought speaking to the father would help.
Both of them visited the church that evening. As they walked in, they could see father Joseph sitting in the first row reading a book. Arya tried to take a look at the book as it did not seem like Bible. As they walked half journey, Daniel said “You must be father Joseph. Hello, sir! I am Daniel a psychiatrist and this is my friend Arya. Both of us have come to seek your help finding Anthony.”
Father stood up and shook hands with Daniel and said “How come you know Anthony? And you want to find Anthony? Is he alright?”
Daniel sat on the second bench while Arya stood. Father sat back in his spot but faced Daniel.
Arya answered “Anthony is a colleague of mine father and four days ago he left his job to go in search of a girl called Senorita. As far as I know no boy would ever leave his job to find a girl but he did as he is insane. I was curious and went to his apartment the next day to talk some sense into him and could not find him. I even... ”
Joseph interrupted saying “You are Arya Allen, Anthony spoke about you almost every time he came here and Mr. Daniel nice to meet you. So both of you have come to me to help Anthony from what?”
Daniel leaned forward and in a steady voice said “Anthony is mentally unstable and is insecure. He is afraid of loneliness to such extreme ends that to protect himself he imagines characters and voices.”
Joseph explained “I know he is single even now and was lonely since a long time but he is definitely not afraid of it. He grew up in an orphanage which I owned and as most humans he seeked what he didn’t possess which was nothing more than love and care…”
Daniel interrupted saying “He was excited to read Misterio Señorita by Antonio didn’t he?”
Joseph thought for a moment as how Daniel knew about the book. He was pretty sure that Anthony always excluded about his lover Senorita in his diary. So he asked, “How do you know about the book?”
Daniel did not care to answer and again asked “Tell us, father. What did Antony really tell you before he made up his mind?”
Joseph plainly answered “Just a few days back he came to me and confessed his petty sins as usual but his tone was high as he was excited to tell me about his eternal lover waiting for him. He told me that he has been hearing a girl’s voice which was very sweet and he spoke with her every day. He also told me that he lost his feeling of loneliness when he heard her and eager to meet her he asked to reveal herself. She insisted that he read a book named Misterio Señorita and told him that this book would unveil the way he would have to travel to meet her. So he asked me to advise him as he was stuck in a dilemma. According to the book, he must let go of all his possessions before he started his journey in search for his lover and since I knew how he cried for years of loneliness, I asked him to win her as I felt his commitment.”
Daniel shouted “You should have never said that! You ruined this boy’s life!”
Arya got tensed while Joseph immediately asked panicking “What happened? Is Anthony alright?”
Daniel explained “A few decades ago a Spanish writer named Antonio Javier wrote poems for years about darkness and loneliness. Seeking to help him, his friend reached him out and took Antonio’s to a psychiatrist. After a clean study, the psychiatrist told Antonio’s friend that he has been lonely all his life and all his thoughts have been overcrowded with darkness and the will for hope has been shattered to such an extent that not even one thought of faith is left in him. The psychiatrist suggested that he would treat Antonio by making use of his strong internal desire to travel. The psychiatrist created a character in Antonio’s mind named Senorita, a girl who would provoke interest in Antonio to travel whenever he is depressed. Antonio’s friend accepted and for about the next two years Antonio wrote the best poetry as he traveled with the voice of Senorita. He started to love Senorita and asked her to reveal herself. She asked him to follow her voice and promised him to one day meet him. Considering nature as the goddess and its everlasting beauty, Antonio wrote the best classics and as time passed by his perception towards love and violence changed. For about two years, he excelled in writing and the last of him was his first story Misterio Señorita a journey he narrated to meet his eternal lover.”
Arya asked “Senorita is a fictitious character, right? How can he find her?”
Daniel smoothly said “Yes but the voice in his head made him travel a specific path finally leading him to a cave in the hills where the voice promised him to reveal herself. When he went in, he could see nothing but a dark pit. Lost was he again into the shadows and disappointment. Crying in pain he threw his book and not wishing to live any longer he killed himself as he felt betrayed. However his book remained as his legacy and since the story is left abrupt it attracted many readers and is an inspiration to many as the truth is always a sour pill but lies are as sweet as honey.”
Joseph did not understand why the voices directed Antonio to a cave so he asked “Why a cave in the hills? Why not a pit in the graveyard?”
Daniel clapped in excitement as that is the main point “When I got to learn about Antonio in my study of psychology, there is a concept called subconscious memory which will help humans defend from losing themselves when they are in need of strength mentally. Antonio read a poem every day titled “The Cave of Desires” which says that Gods have left a cave in the mysterious hills which satisfies every desire a human has and this poem made his thought shape out in such way.”
Joseph thought for a moment and shouted “So now Anthony is chasing behind the path Antonio left and when he will find out that there isn’t a senorita he would also be lost. Oh! No! What have I done? Daniel, please save him!”
Daniel assured, “I will save him but I need your help, Arya!”
Anthony has been traveling since a week and finally reached the blue hill that Antonio mentioned in his book. He followed not just the book but also the voice in his head and when he almost got into the cave he could see a girl standing in white ballet dancer costume dancing on the stone in between the pond formed by the small hole in the cave’s roof. He raced towards her to peek as he always imagined his Senorita as a ballet dancer. He tried imagining faces to her body as he raced towards her and when he finally reached her, he could see that she was Arya. He was awestruck as she has been with him all these days just beside his cabin and he could not even guess her being the Senorita. He walked near her and she calmly said: “I am sorry for doing this but this is for your own good.”
Saying this she hit him with her taser knocking him unconscious.
Anthony opened his eyes hours later and he could see that he was tied to bed and he could not yell as his mouth was also plastered. Daniel walked in and said “Hello Anthony, I am Daniel your only friend as of now. I will help you let go of your madness and...”
Arya knocked the door and Daniel walked out. She heartily said “Thank you, Mr. Daniel. I am in great debt to you.”
Daniel replied to her “I am angry at you Arya. If you really love Antony, you should have told it to him a long time ago as he would not have started his search or think of Senorita. Frankly it is your shyness that caused the whole thing.”
Arya felt bad but wanted to ask “How did you know about the ballet dancer?”
Daniel replied again “All these crazy people have the same signature line. Anthony loved the poem titled “The Ballet Dancer” by Julius and I presumed that he would love his Senorita dressed like that. I promise to cure him as soon as possible.”