Did you ever feel like you have been ignored?
Did you ever wish you were someone else?
Did you ever think you were a nobody?
Did you ever feel like you don’t deserve to live or even a slight self-hatred?
If yes, then I’m one among you! If you are thinking this is some self-venting blog post, no it’s not! If you are thinking it’s completely motivational, maybe slightly you are correct!
Let me tell you a story of this girl, who was so unpopular and always had pretty best friends around her. She always loved them for all the eleven years she studied with. Unfortunately, she had to move to a different school, in her 10th grade.
She missed her friends so much that she always wrote letters to her classmates and asked a neighborhood friend who was from the same school to deliver them. Months passed, she would confirm that the letters were received and would get very happy imagining how her dear friends would feel when they read her letter.
One day a lady said, “Why are you so foolish? You always send letters and they never respond. Why do you even write when they don’t even care?”
Our girl suddenly felt so bad. The happy faces that she imagined all those days, suddenly started looking so blank. She wasn’t sure how they felt anymore. As she wrote back one last time, she wished gods that the woman was wrong, and to prove her wrong, all she needed was a single response which she had never received.
Years have passed, she graduated, started working and things settled. However, the fact that she was ignored and the fear of the possibility that her letters were not even read used to make her heart heavy as she teared up once in a while.
Yes of course that girl was me, after years when I was going through my old belongings I found 2 letters. I remembered that those were my last letters and I kept a carbon paper while writing those letters so that I could have a copy as well. LOL!
Just like most of you would do, I felt nostalgic took a picture, posted it in my school girls group. Any guesses what happened?
I was ignored again! I felt so sad and thought nothing changed, none of them cared. I closed my WhatsApp for all-day felt so low the next day and started checking my message late at night.
I was ignored? So, I thought! But in fact, I wasn’t. One of them collected all my letters addressed to her and saved them at her home. The other girls, they remembered that I wrote to them.
To me, who thought all these years that I was unwanted and the friends I spent eleven years together, didn’t even respond to my letters and ignored me, that thought wasn’t true. At least a few remembered them. Even if it’s just one person, she still treasures them. For me, that was the most beautiful moment I had in these dark and depressing pandemic times.
Always remember, there’s a second side of the story. Don’t assume things negatively, if you are going to assume anyway then try assuming positively. If only I assumed that my friends have enjoyed reading my letters, I wouldn’t have suffered all these years thinking I’m unwanted. I wouldn’t have this insecurity that I would be a bad friend and eventually, everyone would leave me. Although it looks like a small thing, it can trigger something big inside you. So always think positively and keep reading.